So the fun news is that I’m struggling with depression. I hate the word ‘struggkin’…. I’m DEALING with depression. I feel like maybe it’s situational, is it? On top of that my recently diagnosed Auto Immune disease is jerking my chain. I couldn’t swim for 6 days because it was raining everyday, which normally would make me swoon, but I haven’t been able to be in the water and that has made it rear it’s ugly head.
The thing about water is that full body compression from the water not only helps keep the pain away but is great for lymph draining. It’s the perfect exercise in every way, all muscles are used and it’s great cardio and the compression is fantastic.
So we went swimming on Thursday, me and Joshua, but the water was too cold for him to get in. Puss! I swam for 2.5 hours and it felt so great… until I get out and gravity hits… then it rained Friday, went today and the husband wouldn’t get in because it was too cold… ps: 90 degrees outside… but somehow the water manages to be cold. I swam for 1.5 hours and the laud in the sun. First time that the lounge chair didn’t try to burn my skin off. I usually have to put it in the sun deck part of the pool and soak it for a second
I have so many scars from swimming this summer! Scrapes in my feet, my calves, my elbows and my knees! I haven’t had scrapes on my knees for DECADES. Good times.
I’ve been asked what my diagnosis is for me new disease friend but I’m intentionally not posting it because I investigate everything until it’s just a powder I can blow away and have done that with this. I, kindly, don’t want or need advice. Sorry.
I have found some new music that I am LOVING!!
Benson Boone’s Beautiful Things and Pretty Slowly are so fucking good! Pretty Slowly will break your heart. You will die.
Kaleo: Way Down is so good!
Olivia Rodrigo : Vampire… probably an acquired taste but I love it
Post Malone : Pour Me a Drink ( country music) I love PM! If you’ve never watched him in an interview, do. He is so soft and teddy bear and sweet and kind. Just adorable. Such a good person. I guess that’s why we don’t judge a book by its cover.
Hozier: Too Sweet… omg. So good!!! So so good.
Funny because I’d added it to my playlist several weeks ago and then went to the pool and there was a man already there( probably my age) playing his music and this song came on. I said, ; I love this song! And then we bonded over music. My son has been sitting in the cabana but after a few minutes of this guy and I talking Josh came into the pool. So sweet! He’s protective… of his daddy 😂 although a couple of months ago a Trump supporter and I were discussing politics in the pool and Josh came in to “protect me” which I don’t need by a long shot but Josh was being sweet. I, on the other hand, said sternly… “ He’s a fucking rapist” and just as I said it, to put the exclamation point at the end, I fell off my floaty. That pretty much sums me up.
Jax: I Choose Violence. Maybe just a girl kind of thing.
Molly Hocking : I’ll Never Love Again. Omg! So good. Cover of A Star Is Born song by Lady Gaga. So good. It will kill you.
Sabrina Carpenter: Please Please Please. It’s so good but also fucking funny.
Chappel Roan: My Kink is Karna. Also, maybe a girl thing.
Lewis Capaldi: Before You Go. Heartbreaking!!! You can feel it in your soul.
Well, just listening to these songs while posting has been good for my soul.
One more thing! Football started so I get to hang out with my dad! Ya, maybe the depression is situational.
Killing me to see pictures.
Me.
