Voted today….

 Not that it matters a whole lot in this backward state. There were a LOT of police officers present. I was glad to see that.

My depression kicked in a couple of days ago. Out of the blue. One day fine and the next, definitely NOT fine. This is my favorite time of year. If I could control my brain then I would never run into depression in the fall and winter. I can’t stop it. I can’t prevent it. It just fucking lurks back there trying to force me into letting my oldest children ruin my joy. And along those lines, I found out today that my Lincoln is in the hospital. My om didn’t call to tell us. It was a fluke that I found out. Last week was a better week to deal with that. Today isn’t the day so, I’m the box it goes until the next better day comes.

I just feel… Incredibly Sad. No real reason. Just a fluffy black cloud embracing my heart. If I can just blow it away….

Tracy