In the Meantime…..

 While I give a few days for a decision that I can conclusively feel that I’ve been told IE: No photos v photos…. Let’s talk about this stuff…

My YM will be coming the night of the 23rd, we’ll be baking Christmas cookies and going to Sugarbacon for dinner. There’s a new fudge store here and a macaron store so we’ll be stocking off from locally made companies. We’re going to see a movie on Christmas Eve, then attend a Christmas concert here on the Island by our tree and then go to the Cheesecake Factory. Christmas Day we’re doing a breakfast then heading to the Gaylord for a Circ show, ice sculptures and a late dinner. We are going to turn on the “fireplace,” turn on the Christmas lights, light candles, make cocoa from the cocoa bar I’ll be setting up for the weekend, play Bing Crosby and open presents. Day after Christmas we’re going to a Winter Festival put on by Hallmark at the Dallas Fairgrounds so you know it’s gonna be like a movie!! Then the husband has the rest of the week off until January 2nd. 

Our company dinner is on the 16th at Del Frisco’s Grill. 

I’m really feeling calm and happy. 

For transparency, I’ve been put on a new medication by my psychiatrist. I have what I call “ therapy” dreams where in I spend the night either reliving events or reliving them and trying to say or do something I wish I’d done and this all includes raging at the offending party. It’s exhausting. There’s a medication for PTSD that’s been used on combat vets and rape victims, all types of abuse victims that blocks the section of the brain from  not only replaying those events but helps to block the very memories, or certain details that should just go into the box. It’s supposed to stop those dreams from happening. I’ve already asked my husband if such and such happened over the phone, in person or through text. I could not pull the memory up. He responded “ Let’s let the box do its job”  Ya, let’s do that.

Ok, done chatting you guys up. 

See ya in the flip side!

Tracy