Bear?

 How do I know if there’s still a bear here? If there’s no Bear then there’s no reason to continue. It’s been 21 years of this. It’s the only way that I can share with a Bear other than through instagram. If I don’t see a sign from a bear then I need to say goodbye. God, that would break my heart. 

I’ve stopped my YouTube channel for now. I’m going to start a new one, whole new set up, whole new concept and I excited about it. Planned my space to do videos. Got new equipment. Excited for a new adventure. Did I ever mention that my book was published? Not under my name but not too difficult to figure out….. it’s doing well. I’m so proud. I don’t want my name connected. It’s so personal. This new project will be something that I feel is a whole new connection to a whole different type of viewer. 

Got my results from my latest blood tests. Go to the doc on Friday but I can see the results are great!! I have iron! I have oxygen! I feel so good and happy and motivated!! What an amazing thing that oxygen to your brain is! Highly underrated!! I can’t even sleep because I’m writing again and excited about it, so much I want to do. I feel like I’m on the other side of a canyon. Joy :-)

I love you. 

Hope to see a sign. 

If not… Only you. 

Tracy