I’m listen to a 70’s rock ballad playlist and it straight up punched me that these songs are close to 50 years old, so I get to thinking that in the 80’s songs 50 years earlier came from the 30’s and then I thought…. Ok, music 50 years before I was born…. 1918!!!!!!!!
Goddamn.
My birthday is on the 16th. I’ll be 54 yrs old and that shocks me at least twice per week.
Anyway, now that I’m thoroughly depressed.
I’m doing really well lately. Ok, I had a hiccup Thursday but other than that, things are good!!!
There’s an issue with my book and the documentary. Like, together. A legal one that I can’t get into but has me putting everything on hold for awhile. It’s just precautionary but I’m kind of glad that they are off my plate for awhile.
I met with a new primary doc on Thursday and proceeded to go into a full on panic attack before hand. Those visits to the uro-gyn have fucked me up. For the last two years I haven’t had an in office visit that didn’t involve being undressed and something humiliating happening. If I’m never handed a paper gown again it will be too soon.
The point though!!!! She’s so good!!! My heart rate was through the roof so she had to do an ekg even though I said it was from my anxiety and when she saw that everything was fine she was so so so kind about the panic thing and said, seems like some ptsd going on. I wanted to make her my best friend for understanding!!! She’s great and I’m so happy about that!!! Plus, bonus points for telling me three times that my outfit was so cute!!! Compliments WILL get you a very long way with me!!
I do have so see a neurologist for the fainting, even though I got the whole brain scan stuff in the hospital. I mean, something is off, for sure, but the neuro in the hospital said a very special and adorable migraine. I’ll be fine.
We had snow on Friday. Loved that!!
Have to run!!
Je t’aime,
Me
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