Boy, it’s been awhile….

 Things are good here. I’m feeling great emotionally and physically. I’m treating my new autoimmune disease with supplements instead of steroids and I’m winning! There are down days but pretty few of them and I’m just feeling so much more energized and happy. 

I ride my bike for about five miles on the days that I don’t go swimming and then I do a workout in the pool for about 2-3 hours and that’s really helping the muscle pain and my emotional wellbeing. We have four small waterfalls that pour into pool and science shows that hearing running water and even just looking at water calms the mind, lowers anxiety and helps depression. Plus being in the sun for even a short time helps with mental health. I try to stay in that shaded part of the pool to cut down on exposure because I have dainty baby skin that blisters! And, I do not want the leather skin look. When I get out I shower and use a shower oil and then moisturize moisturize moisturize! Until the cows come home! 

I have to admit, I do like me with more freckles more better. I won’t wear any makeup but mascara and lipstick. 

I don’t enjoy summer down here on the devil’s butt but I’ve been enjoying it this year. I just feel so much happier. 

My foot, still broken ! I am supposed to walk on it some without a boot so I do. The crushed tissue is not wanting to heal but doc says that’s ok and to just wait it out but do massage it and roll a tennis ball on it and try bending the toes. Seriously, this happened in January! If that isn’t my luck then I don’t know what is!!!

Haven’t spoken to my children and it’s getting lighter and lighter. OM is getting a divorce. I’m not supposed to know, of course, but Josh stayed with her for 10 days a couple of weeks ago and so I was told all the details. He went to visit YM and her boyfriend as he flew in from California. He’s been accepted to Berkeley so I imagine that he’ll be pretty busy and won’t come back for a while. He and Joshua have become pretty good friends. We have not met him as YM has gone the way of her older siblings. I’ll tell you the reason some time… it’s just so fucking incredible. I try not to bring it into my thoughts.  Can’t say that I’m shocked that OM is getting divorced. She’s just not a nice person and her husband is a special kind of stupid. He… boy, he did something so shitty to her that it’s breath taking! Karma, She punches.

I’ve been thinking of a bear and lately I’ve been visiting the bear in my dreams every night. Not our age now but when a bear and I were young. In my dreams circumstances are completely different and there’s just me and a bear. I love the visits. 

Gotta go.

Look up at the moon and that’s where you’ll find me.