Don’t judge.
I need to get blood taken. I don’t want to. This lab is in a grocery store, not a hospital. Is that better? I don’t feel like it is but......
I need these tests badly. I have got to stop winning and go!
Wanna know what a big win is??? My car tags were due in March and because everything is closed I haven’t had go get the inspection and my tags!! Woot!! Not much sucks more than the DPS.
It’s going well with YM being here, so far. She’s happy and I haven’t heard her laugh like she is in a long time. I was on the phone with Robb and had him listen. She couldn’t catch her breath and that made me love her.
I don’t believe that I would have been as strong as her at 22. Now, mind you, at that age I bought my first home, I was a single mother, I’d had NO help in raising my son, so I wasn’t some weak little daisy either, but emotionally I think I was needy. I once had a man tell me that he loved me but wasn’t IN love with me and at the time, I settled for that. Have I ever talked about that in this blog? We were actually living together so it was especially nice to know. I hate remembering things like that. It makes my heart hurt for that girl but at the same time, I taught my girls to never take less than they deserve. I suppose that I probably thought that that was all I deserved and I had nowhere to go. That’s another reason why the YM is living with me. I don’t want my children to stay in a position because they have no place to go.....
Which is something that shook me to my core when my dad passed. I’ve been married for nearly 27 years but when my dad and I started to become close, I knew that I could go to him if I ever needed too and as childish as it sounds, I suddenly had nowhere to go if my world came crashing down around me. So immature. But, it is what it is. I think that was a big part of the rage grief... pissed that he left me....
Look at me. I’m a therapist. If you need someone to talks to it’s $150 for the first hour, fresh baked goods for the rest. Sounds fair.
I have to run.
Night loves.... or, morning as the case may be!
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