This

 Have you seen the new Dave Chappelle special on Netflix? The Closer. I almost didn’t watch it because I’d read some stuff about it and how offensive it is and yada yada yada but, I put in my big girl panties and decided that considering what it takes to be deemed offensive these days, I should let myself decide if it was or not and do you not think that everyone has turned into fucking pussies? Everyone walking around,  Ow, my pussy hurts! Why? Because I was complimented BY A MAN on my new haircut. That crossed the line! 

I had to give my husband a pc lecture on a word he used that can’t be used anymore. He was all, Since when? I don't fucking know! I just get the details through social media, no one sends me the memo! Yesterday it was fine, today it’s not. I’m just trying to keep up.

Do you ever feel like that?

Anyway, the special was really good. There’s a story towards the end that can no be missed. The whole thing was a rollercoaster of emotions so, buckle up and wear a jockstrap so you don’t get hurt.

Since my family has whittled down by quite a few, I’m looking to shake up Christmas this year. We’ll be back home the week before and since we will have, basically, celebrated with the YM, I really want to dress to the nines and go to a glittery, shimmery, candle lit dinner at a gorgeous restaurant with freaking Christmas music playing in the background, with the youngest boy man and husband. We will be doing that while we are gone so, maybe for New Years Eve? 

I’m feeling so not depressed that It’s making me want to make plans! 

On to a completely different topic…..

Every single night for a few weeks I’ve been dreaming about an old boss, a bears mother. For some odd reason, I’m living with her. My dad is in these dreams too and it’s always the same in a certain part…. I’m walking up a hill to the house I’m living in with ex boss/ bear mom and someone runs up behind me, there’s a lot of people and a body of water that I think is a lake. Anyway, they tap me on the shoulder, I turn and there’s an outstretched hand holding a small jewelry box. In it is a pair of earrings made of the brightest green Peridot and diamonds and they make a hummingbird. The person says, “ Don’t forget these. Your dad gave them to you”

And I walk up to the house.

EVERY NIGHT.

Why is this? What is this? I’ve been scouring the internet for earrings that look like those, the Peridot is emerald cut, the diamonds make the wings and they are teardrop shaped.

It’s a mystery.

I have to run. I still have editing to work on. 

Tracy