Tuesday

 So, ya, there’s a 6.44 cm lesion on my spleen, that’s just over 2.5 inches, In an organ the size of a fist. 

I’m going to get a CT scan of my pancreas. I have to take my ultrasound and the CT scan to an oncologist appt next Wednesday.  Apparently, it’s super rare that if this lesion were to be cancerous that cancer starts in your spleen. I don’t know why. It’s almost always a secondary cancer that has spread to your spleen. We did look at my pancreas in the ultrasound but a more in-depth view is needed, I guess. 

It sounds scary as fuck. However, it could be a benign granuloma, they can happen if you’ve had A LOT of serious infections, that’s me and my kidneys, right? My primary says that that could very well cause the lesion. Apparently, In your spleen and lungs and maybe other stuff, if a bacteria invades and organ,  your body can wall it off with calcium deposits to stop the invasion. This lesion is solid, not fluid, so if not a cancerous mass then calcium or otherwise called granulomas. 

I was in full on panic mode, especially when I heard the word “pancreas” I’ve told you guys that treatment is not an option for me if I were to ever have cancer of the pancreas. It goes too fast and treatment only prolongs the pain for you to die a miserable death and I’m not a fan of that, so panic, well, is there something above panic? Like uncontrollably shaking during all wakeful hours of the day? Because that’s it. But!!! I’m feeling better having spoken to my doctor… A whopping EIGHT times on Monday! I swear, the woman is a saint. She called me, for the record, I wasn’t panic dialing her, I was too busy shaking. When she called the final time I said “ ( Dr’s first name) I was just missing you” she thought that was funny. Yes, we’re on a first name basis already!

I’m getting blood work on Wednesday that will also give some pancreas info. Could be infected which might be what’s causing the pain too. Good times!

Have you ever had your bar so low that you’re praying for pancreatitis? 

Ok, must be going, if I remember correctly there’s a golf tournament in Oklahoma this week sometime? It’s raining hard as hell here tonight.  Has been most of the last week. Not really humid either and hasn’t been very hot. Not sure what OK is like though. Hope to see pics.

Me.