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It’s been a minute since I’ve posted.
I had my antibiotic dosage doubled and I have to take them every six hours round the clock. I don’t think they’re working.... Or it’s possible that my kidneys just hurt from the infection.... did I mention I have a kidney infection? I don’t even know what I wrote last and I’m in a hurry so I’m not even gonna look. Yes! Lazy!
It’s kicking my ass. That’s all I know.
My head is a little less in the black water these days. I think it’s because “My” time of year is here and whatever it takes is good by me.
Ancestry dot com gave me a few free days to look up people in yearbooks!!! Guess who I can’t find? Ya, ME!!! How is that possible? I’ve been looking up so many people from the Movie of My Life and it’s SO WEIRD!! These people look like babies!! And I knew most of them then. My God, life is flying by.
Looking at those pictures made me glad that I don’t live in the same city or even state where I was born and I didn’t get married until I was 25. I mean, that’s not old but it also wasn’t 18! Or 19 like my mother. I’m so glad that I got to live life and experience different people and places. It had never occurred to me that I wouldn’t live in the same city for my entire life. It’s just how it was. I didn’t know anyone who’d left their hometown. I probably would never have chosen to move to Texas, per se, but here’s the weird thing, TWO people I dated live in Texas. One was Rob’s best friend and, being honest, that was for about a minute and really only to make Rob jealous, that worked, but he lives, literally, under five miles from me currently. If that isn’t a small world, I don’t know what is. The oldest son’s lifelong best friend lives here and a close friend of mine from Arizona moved here as well. It’s really odd that of all the places...
Ok, sit down because this is just how small the world is and it’s gonna rock someone’s world if they are even reading. For the rest of you... Well, you’ll be confused. Sorry.
I get emails from Planned Parenthood. I really have no idea why, but that’s not the point. Usually I don’t read them. I’m sorry, but I just don’t have anything to use them for, so, they usually just get deleted as most times they seem to just be asking for money.... but this one caught my attention because of the title....
Meet Mattise:
This is not a common name, although I adore it. So I clicked on the email. The one that goes out to everyone in the US on their list, I would imagine. And there it was... An article written by Mat-tise Wo-od along with her photo.
The article described her experience with a Catholic university which I knew immediately to be the University that I had once lived close to and her how they treated her after she was sexually assaulted.
She’s bright and brave and Looks like sunshine.
Very brave. I hope that she is supported in her braveness. Lioness.
On the 1st of September my youngest will be an adult. That is shaking me up. What is my purpose in life? Will I become invisible? I’m going to die soon. ( ya, that was cheery, right? )
Last but not least.... a day doesn’t go by.... One hour doesn’t go by where my OM doesn’t call me. We talk while she nurses and I listen to My Lucky Penny’s nursing sounds and my heart is filled to capacity with love for this tiny human who is 25% Me!! He will look at me on the phone and smile! He was here last weekend and cooed and smiled and reached out for my face. My God. It’s perfect.
My other 25 percenter saw me on FaceTime tonight and yelled “Grandma!” He has five or six grandmas ( lesbians and bio father’s wife etc) and I’m the ONLY one he calls Grandma. Yes, it’s a fucking contest, ok?!
I have done well. My kids and grandkids are pretty kick ass.
Have to go. Nearly done with first draft of my book. I like it.
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