Today
How’s everyone doing? Staying inside? If you’re “Essential” how are you feeling about that?
My husband and both daughters are “essential” but my OM gets to work from home. Her position with her employer deals with an area in which she can run her department from home. YM is terrified everyday because of her contact with people and how close to DFW Airport she is. She’s practically begging to not be essential and if she wasn’t we’d have her come stay here. The husband can easily stay far enough away from employees and everyday they are taking temperatures and giving out one day wristbands. Still, he puts his clothing in a bag, takes a shower, washes clothing with gloves and a mask etc... it’s me that he’s afraid to give it two and TWICE now I’ve had symptoms but they went away ASAP so I’m going for allergies. Not death.
And that’s how fun it is here. I had a FaceTime appt with my psychiatrist today and I think I’ll do that for every appointment. Did I wear pants? No! I was like a news anchor! Business on top, party in the bottom... or in this case, flannel pj shorts. Same thing.
Wanna hear a secret????
I belong to this Facebook group that gifts strangers. Like.... you make an Amazon wish list with whatever on it. Mine is so random! And they make lists and you check out people’s lists and anonymously buy something off their list to send to them. I just joined about a week ago and I’m gonna need a support group. I love this so much. I like to go through lists to get a picture of who they are and then choose according to how I’ve judged them as people. Seriously, you can tell a lot about a person by what they put on their wish list.... lube? Pass. Organic honey? Ok!
So.... I like to buy things that I think feel good... like... candles, flavored coffee pods, fuzzy socks, nice pillowcases, books, spices, bath bombs.... You get the idea. I scour lists for those type of things....Why I’m not getting these for me if they make ME feel good? Because it sucks out there right now and to be able to just have something that feels good delivered to a complete stranger who may be walking a thin line that day is better than me buying myself soft socks. That feels nice too. I highly recommend the anonymous gift buying thing for whomever in your life that could use a feel good item even if that’s flavored coffee pods!
Couple of q & a’s
- what helps your anxiety?
Cold. If it’s cold outside, I go outside or open a door or window. If it’s not... ice. Hot tea. Hot anything, really. I like heating pads. Hot showers. Then back to cold. Music. Action movies, no lie, for a person that hates noise, action movies calm me down. Soft things. I carry a blanket like a small child. No, not out in public but I have it on the couch, I sleep with it, I take it on trips, it’s like a blanket body pillow. I like the weight and texture. If you guys repeat that I’ll kick all Y’all’s asses.
- do you wish that you’d had more children?
No. Nope. Not at all. That fourth child kicked my ass so hard. I don’t know if I had postpartum depression or what but my will to live was sucked plum out of me. I was a zombie. He never slept in a crib. Ever. His startle reflex was extreme. He had to be held while he slept and he had to be held while he was awake. His feet barely touched the floor for a year and when they did one time at nine months..... he walked... I’m not joking! Then he was picked back up again. He was glued to be until he was six years old and decided to play volleyball. No lie. I thought for sure that he’d lose his shit when he has to stand alone to serve but... True to form, at six years old he served over the net and became a bird.
My point... Four. Period.
Got to go.
Night, Luvs
Me
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