And then there is this one....

Older

I can tell by the things that I get excited about that I must be getting older!

1 I bought a set of drapes for our room, the sun literally beams in between the blinds and right into my face, so they are heavy grey velvet that are about nine ft tall and so soft, so beautiful but I wanted the softness to contrast with the rod so we bought kitchen/bathroom pipes and turned them into the rod so through the tops of the drapes the silver colored pipes peak out with their texture and then the pipe ends are drilled into either side of the window and I LOVE the shiny with the soft but heavy feel of the drapes and pipes. It only took me... 358 days to do that.

I love love the huge umbrella on the balcony!!! It just feels so European with the bits here and there and my paintings. A 6 ft lit cherry blossom tree. A pipe lamp with a yellow Edison bulb. 

I ordered a leather ottoman with steel rivets but the top is tufted so again a soft and rugged touch. I’m moving my trunks which I’ve used in that space to different parts of the house. Getting rid of a tall bookshelf that I loved in a “regular” apartment but I hate it here. It’s right in my line of vision and everyone likes it but I don’t. I want minimalism or items with more than one use. A surprise in a functional piece. A bookshelf is NOT that. 

Anyway.... that’s what’s going through my brain today.

Yesterday we met OM 1/2 way, grabbed some burgers and tailgated about 8 ft apart. I’m missing her pregnancy and, ugh! So frustrating!! We had a great time.   I needed it.

I have a kidney infection.... I know! I’m shocked as well!! I’m taking a hit on this one. I’m done. So over it. 

  I haven’t written a story since the 12th of March. My brain can’t work since my father died. I wrote a couple of stories and que’d them and then went to the Boy’s house and then two days later my dad passed.

The gears won’t work. I can’t write spooky or scary or about dying or anything grey. I have started, lots of stories, and then put them in my “unfinished” folder. 

So I’ve been doing more.... Fluffy..... type topics.

My dad’s wife sent me an email and said that she picked a silver locket to remember him by.

Let me ask you..... Does that sound like I’m going to get ashes in there or.... No?

I want some ashes and a couple, two exactly, items of my dad’s and I don’t know how to ask and be like.... Remember those things I asked for and when I said I’d like some ashes, ya, sorry to bother you, my bad, uh.... can I maybe get those things, please, when you can, no rush....

What are these rules????? 

So, since I’ve been unable to paint for reasons beyond not having paint, since I do have paint now, I decided to snag a lyric or two from my favorite songs and maybe explain why I’m drawn to it. K??

This song... this album I tore to shreds. There are songs that make you think.... I could have written this and once in a blue moon there are albums, entire albums, that make you feel like someone has had entry to your mind and spilled out your insides... for me that’s been Pink/Funhouse

Alanis Morissette/ Jagged Little Pill

Bonnie Raitt/Luck of the Draw

Garth Brooks/The Hits

There’s probably more but let’s move on to:

Pink:

Glitter in The Air:

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?

Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone

If you’ve never shook your head yes to these lyrics. God Bless ya. I love “ your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone” 

Heartbreaking and insightful.

Have you ever wished for an endless night?

Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?

Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself

Will it ever get better than tonight? 

If you have never thought this, my heart breaks for you. THIS is my favorite feeling in life...... one of them anyway.... Top Four!

Ok, night luvs.

Tracy