The one where she whines a lot.... Again

 Ahhh!!!

We’re going to Arizona this week and that means that my anxiety ramps up exponentially!

I am a list maker.

I also pack a LOT of.... what if? Just in case, and, you never know, items.

Let me tell you something. I have used so many of those on vacations that I can’t not take them. 

Can we buy them there?

No. Some things we can but I also take prescription eye medication or skin medication or migraine medication and you can not buy those things. 

I’m a friggin pharmacy. 

And people may laugh but when they start puking they are grateful for prescription nausea meds. I can tell you that!

Plus I obsess over making sure everyone’s prescriptions are filled and you need clothes for hot days and cold days and do I need a skirt? Dress? High heels, sandals, flats, runners, slip ons?????

I have to have my own pillow and I sleep with this blanket like it’s a body pillow and I have to have that.

You guys, it’s stupid. Plus it doesn’t matter if it’s for two days or two weeks. Same same.

Then, we plan where we are going, what we will do and where we will eat.

I’m also a planner.

I have a box full of my oldest son’s baby things. His footprints, first outfit, the hat they put on him, the notes that timed my contractions while in labor!!! I’m going to give him those. Bitter sweet. I’m so glad that even at the age of 16 I knew to keep those

It’s been raining and cold here for weeks and the entire time we’re gone it’s suppose to rain too. I hate to miss it! It’s going to be hot as the surface of the sun soon so I’m enjoying the cold and gray so much.

I’m glad we will be in Arizona before it’s too hot. I just can’t stand southern Arizona. I hate everything about it. It’s just one big beige blur. I hate stucco. I hate gravel yards. I hate homes with two different shades of beige or browner beige. I hate that when it rains it’s a sauna. I hate that you hide during the day so you can come out during the only a bit less than blazing evenings. 

I only miss the real Mexican food. That’s it. I do love northern Arizona but that’s because it’s basically a different state. 

I haven’t been back to Casa Grande since we moved 11 years ago and I only feel dread. I mean, I am thrilled to see that baby and my family but the place is dark and unhappy for me. I think that’s causing me some anxiety as well. It must be because I’m planning as much, not being in casa grande, as possible. I begged the son to let us rent a cabin in Flag or showlow or Pinetop... but no. They don’t want to stay in a cabin.... come on!! In the mountains???? With trees????? NOT in Casa Grande???? Ugh.

Yes. I’m whining. 

Just concentrate on being happy about the family. Deep breaths. 

We will go visit trees. And we’re going to hang out in New Mexico on the way home so, I do love it there. So beautiful!

Aren’t you glad you came today?

I bought a gorgeous new palette today and I keep opening it up and staring at it. That’s good!

I went to Wichita Falls last week for a doc appointment and took YM and the boy with me. We met  with om for a meal and we had the best time. The drive is about 5 hours all together and we laughed the entire time. They are funny people!! I was suppose to edit videos while YM drove but I actually got nothing done and I didn’t care. That was very nice.

On the flip side, my urologist has lost not one, not two, but THREE complete blood work ups on me. Three. And now I’m going for my fourth on Tuesday. Does that make you feel like you’re in good hands??? Right. Me either. I did kind of a little bit lose my shit.

I need this test before I leave. Cross your fingers!

I have to go. 

Talk soon.

Me